Call it being over optimistic but i still firmly believe that life is full of opportunities.
Reminds me of the these lines from 'the alchemist' - god has scattered omens everywhere, we just have to identify and pick them up.
Omens or opportunities,whatever you choose to call them , there's no denying the fact that till the time we dont gear up and take charge ,we cant achieve happiness.
So, if i am so aware, about how i feel ,about what i need to do then why the spirit of complacency?
I was never like that.
I was free,i was expressive and i had the zest to gallop towards hard tasks and win over'em.
I still remember when i won the best actors award for two consecutive years during my school days.
What a KICK !!!!
WHOA, i could act too .... and that too very well..
but NO, had absolutely no thoughts of taking it professionally .
It was during that time, after my board exams that i got a chance to leave home and fly high in the sky of freedom.
It was 'Amchi Mumbai' that gave me wings , helped me evolve....into a stronger and smarter 'new me'.
That's when i realised how important it was to dream...dream big.
Life kept gaining pace and months went by.
I was studying hotel management now, and had no clue what i really wanned to be, a chef, manager,housekeeper .......blah
Oh btw , i was still religiously sketching in my books.
Only that the sketches had evolved now, they were clearer,more expressive and ofcourse beautiful!!!
Sometimes i think, had i preserved all my designs i could have come up with my own design encyclopedia..but as of now i am pretty content with a blog ( ha)
Coming back,
As years and months went by,i kept sweeping away from my dream,my passion.
So,was i not interested in designing anymore?
Ofcourse i was, just that college took over and i was submerged in the course curriculum...
Time was ticking and i had No idea of how complacent i was becoming towards my passion my dream....
I was getting too caught up in the mundane circle o life.
Was my passion dieing a slow death cos i wanted to pick up a professional degree which could earn me a decent living.?
The answer is 'NO'..
I never planned, started doing that off lately though.
For me,being in mumbai and living away from my parents was liberating !!
You know how an average teenager USED to be in those early days.
Followed the inflexible circle of school home tution classes home.
I wasnt aware....
Honestly i wasn't.....life kept taking different turns and i kept riding the wave of change....
Didnt realise that it would take me so far and land me into a situation where now the urge to take charge is the strongest but the ability to take a risk,too weak.
Today i stand amidst a mist of uncertainty and risks........
